Ima\u00adgi\u00adnar con toda pasi\u00f3n y luci\u00addez la muer\u00adte. Inter\u00adnar\u00adse gra\u00addual\u00admen\u00adte en el cese abso\u00adlu\u00adto, en el fin de la his\u00adto\u00adria. Tener un atis\u00adbo pal\u00adpa\u00adble de no res\u00adpi\u00adrar, no per\u00adci\u00adbir, no hacer, ter\u00admi\u00adnar\u00adse. Sue\u00ad\u00f1o l\u00faci\u00addo espon\u00adt\u00e1\u00adneo que no es sue\u00ad\u00f1o y tam\u00adpo\u00adco es ima\u00adgi\u00adna\u00adci\u00f3n pro\u00adpia del esta\u00addo de vigi\u00adlia. Visi\u00adta guia\u00adda por invitaci\u00f3n.<\/p>\n
Sal\u00ed de ese esta\u00addo con la res\u00adpi\u00adra\u00adci\u00f3n agi\u00adta\u00adda. Doble impac\u00adto, se tie\u00adne alien\u00adto y eso mag\u00adni\u00adfi\u00adca la impre\u00adsi\u00f3n del esta\u00addo del que se aca\u00adba de salir: el subir y bajar del pecho tan agi\u00adta\u00addo por ese sobre\u00adsal\u00adto se hab\u00eda ima\u00adgi\u00adna\u00addo<\/em> des\u00adde su ausen\u00adcia. Una angus\u00adtia que no es sere\u00adna ni es deses\u00adpe\u00adra\u00adci\u00f3n. Se lla\u00adma \u2018due\u00adlo por uno mis\u00admo\u2019. \u2018Me voy a extra\u00ad\u00f1ar cuan\u00addo no ten\u00adga con qu\u00e9 extra\u00ad\u00f1ar\u00adme\u2019, me he dicho con ino\u00adcen\u00adcia en las otras veces que me ocu\u00adrri\u00f3 el tran\u00adce. Las pri\u00adme\u00adras dos oca\u00adsio\u00adnes fue\u00adron pre\u00adlu\u00addios a cam\u00adbios dr\u00e1s\u00adti\u00adcos en mi vida que desem\u00adbo\u00adca\u00adron en sen\u00addas depre\u00adsio\u00adnes cl\u00ed\u00adni\u00adcas. Fue\u00adron cam\u00adbios dr\u00e1s\u00adti\u00adcos que en aqu\u00e9l enton\u00adces enten\u00add\u00ed como cat\u00e1s\u00adtro\u00adfes. La depre\u00adsi\u00f3n ya esta\u00adba pero a\u00fan no alcan\u00adza\u00adba el cl\u00ed\u00admax. El epi\u00adso\u00addio de hoy es el cuar\u00adto. Sen\u00adt\u00ed mie\u00addo adre\u00adna\u00adl\u00ed\u00adti\u00adco: pro\u00adpio del que sien\u00adte que est\u00e1 ante un even\u00adto l\u00edmi\u00adte. No lo sien\u00adto como un hado funes\u00adto. Aca\u00adso me podr\u00eda incli\u00adnar m\u00e1s por dar\u00adle una lec\u00adtu\u00adra de cam\u00adbio radi\u00adcal, lumi\u00adno\u00adso y espec\u00adta\u00adcu\u00adlar como el que se abri\u00f3 ano\u00adche con luna gigan\u00adte y todo. Cuan\u00addo \u2018des\u00adper\u00adt\u00e9\u2019 ima\u00adgi\u00adn\u00e9 la negru\u00adra que se ve\u00eda antes de reci\u00adbir un impac\u00adto de bala o ser atro\u00adpe\u00adlla\u00addo. Pude ver el \u00falti\u00admo alien\u00adto de per\u00adso\u00adnas que han muer\u00adto. Eso me fue sere\u00adnan\u00addo, todos mue\u00adren. Ima\u00adgi\u00adn\u00e9 a mis fami\u00adlia\u00adres, a mis ami\u00adgos m\u00e1s cer\u00adca\u00adnos. Me ima\u00adgi\u00adn\u00e9 escri\u00adbien\u00addo la sen\u00adsa\u00adci\u00f3n y ya de enton\u00adces sab\u00eda que era absur\u00addo empren\u00adder el inten\u00adto. No hay for\u00adma de narrar ni la inten\u00adsi\u00addad ni el espa\u00adcio visi\u00adta\u00addo, no con mis recur\u00adsos, no des\u00adde la narrativa.<\/p>\n Ya con la res\u00adpi\u00adra\u00adci\u00f3n tran\u00adqui\u00adla encen\u00add\u00ed la l\u00e1m\u00adpa\u00adra jun\u00adto a mi cama. Des\u00adpu\u00e9s de acli\u00adma\u00adtar\u00adme a ella vol\u00adte\u00e9 al otro lado y abr\u00ed la net\u00adbook. No ten\u00eda pol\u00advo por\u00adque recien\u00adte\u00admen\u00adte la lim\u00adpi\u00e9. El pol\u00advo cae sobre las cosas para no reco\u00adno\u00adcer\u00adlas. Por\u00adque uno no reco\u00adno\u00adce las cosas deja que les cai\u00adga pol\u00advo. Pero todo el obje\u00adto era dis\u00adtin\u00adto, era como des\u00adcu\u00adbrir el afec\u00adto hacia la compu\u00adtado\u00adra. Recor\u00add\u00e9 los tex\u00adtos que habr\u00e9 de escri\u00adbir con ella como si ya los hubie\u00adra escrito.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Ima\u00adgi\u00adnar con toda pasi\u00f3n y luci\u00addez la muer\u00adte. Inter\u00adnar\u00adse gra\u00addual\u00admen\u00adte en el cese abso\u00adlu\u00adto, en el fin de la his\u00adto\u00adria. Tener un atis\u00adbo pal\u00adpa\u00adble de no res\u00adpi\u00adrar, no per\u00adci\u00adbir, no hacer, ter\u00admi\u00adnar\u00adse. Sue\u00ad\u00f1o l\u00faci\u00addo espon\u00adt\u00e1\u00adneo que no es sue\u00ad\u00f1o y tam\u00adpo\u00adco es ima\u00adgi\u00adna\u00adci\u00f3n pro\u00adpia del esta\u00addo de vigi\u00adlia. 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